I don't know what it was, but something about the light this evening gave me heartbreaking nostalgia. For what I don't know. But it reminded me of the end of a kind of sad movie, where maybe someone has moved on or something, and they're watching kids play and ride bikes in the setting sun, and you can see the dust and bugs in the sun rays. I love this feeling, though I feel it so deeply it hurts and makes me want to cry. It's strange to say that it was so beautiful I felt my heart break. Again, I don't know what I'm nostalgic for. Maybe just for more evenings like this. If you want to know what I mean picture it with Tangerine by Led Zepplin, Landslide by Stevie Nicks (or is it Fleetwood Mac?) and Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd. And think of the book the Outsiders and the line "stay golden Ponyboy", and some coming of age type movies. like My Girl, and the Spectacular Now. (probably other's like the Breakfast Club but I actually hate that movie for some reason).
All I want to see in my mind is kids running and riding bikes in slow motion. Little girls' hair flying in their face as they laugh. Tall green trees with the sun behind them so it filters in in stripes, or "God rays" as I always think of it. Everything with a golden haze on it.
And did I snap one picture? Nope! But it will happen again and I'll try and find some little girls with messy hair riding bikes in slow motion to take pictures of (part of the trouble right now is the most amazing light interferes with bedtime). So here are some pictures that have similar nostalgic feelings for me.